Road Trips Can Bring Wisdom

So this weekend I travelled with some friends to General Conference in Salt Lake City. I felt it was about time I tried to go to the actual session considering the last time I went was when I was 4 years old. It proved to be a very good experience. There was something about being there that made the counsel that was given so much more real. There were so many talks given that were of great impact on me. It gave me a great deal to think about. One of the most vivid things I remember was the counsel to keep records of our lives and its events. It really struck me because I have felt an urgency to try and document my life better. I don't want my children to have no idea what experiences/trials/blessings made me who I am. I want them to see how life's mishaps and blessings can help you to become a better person. I want them to feel like Dad gets them. Like he understands where they are coming from because he has been through similar things. I think this blog and keeping a journal on my computer are going to make it easy for me to build something for them to enjoy later. I recently read some of the journal entries of my mother who passed away back in January of 2007 and it was a neat experience to read how she felt about her trials and her blessings. I understood her much more than I had before even though there weren't very many entries to read. I really came to understand how she felt about us children and my father and life in general. It was clear to me that our family was the most important thing to her and that is where most of her concern and worries were. She also had such a great concern for others and tried really hard to help others and set an example to me on how to care for others in a deeper way. I have a lot of work to do in that department. Well, that is pretty much it for now, but hopefully this paints a picture of some of the things I think about often. I find myself spending a lot of time in reflection on who I am right now and how it compares to the vision I have of myself in the future. It can be overwhelming to see the work that needs done to get me to where I want to be, but I know it is possible and the rewards will be amazing.

Doing New Things Should Make You Stronger Or Something, Right?

Well, I have decided to jump on the old blog bandwagon and start documenting my life to some extent. I often feel bad for not being better at journal writing and other such activities that will share who I am with future generations, but honestly I hate writing in a journal. The only success I have had is with digital journals. I get frustrated that I can't write as fast as I am thinking. When I type I can almost keep up with my thoughts. I am hoping that doing the blog thing will show people a little better what I am about and how I feel about stuff. I am hoping I learn that for myself as well. I am not sure I know what I am doing with my life. I have a job and friends and most of the things that people need, but often feel that something is missing, either I am in the wrong place or I am looking for the wrong things. I am not really sure. I just graduated from college and am still in the same town starting a new job and I am grateful to still be near family and old friends, but wonder sometimes if I should have taken a giant leap for me and gone somewhere else with no friends or anything for a fresh start. I hate change and I think it may have been a good time for me to force myself into it. I will have other chances soon enough. I will just try and enjoy the time I still have with friends and hopefully I will make some new ones along the way. Well, I am going to wrap this up for now, but I will be back with the random rantings of a man who is floating about with no clue what comes next.