Sunday, September 7, 2008

Life is a journey with too many forks in the road. Does anyone have a map?

So I was sitting here just thinking about things and developed a desire to talk to some old friends. I was thinking back on all the fun adventures I had early in college and even as far back as High School. Lately life has been a little bland and I have been longing for something and I was not sure what it was, but I think I just need to re-establish some of my relationships with old friends. I have had many friends come and go over the last several years that I could try and get in contact with. I think it would be especially fun to see what some of my friends from back home have done with their lives. I often feel like my life is lacking excitement so I get a kick out of seeing friends on facebook and the adventures they are having with dating or with their little families. I get excited for them and the things going on in their lives. I also often wish my life was more eventful. Don't get me wrong, I have had plenty of madness in the past few years, but it has all been family related things. My life itself seems very plain to me and I am trying to find ways to make it more exciting. That can be an overwhelming task when you live in a town where the most excitement you ever see is when half the population responds to a car accident to see what happened. I think a change is going to be in my near future. I sometimes feel like I need to just go do something that is totally not my style like move to a new place where I don't know anybody, or maybe just be a little more daring with some of the business ideas I have had in my head for several years, or maybe I just need to take off on a vacation to some foreign place (I have a little over 100 hours of vacation time I need to use). I feel like lately I have made a lot of my decisions based off of what I thought other people needed and not what I need. The hard things is that it is difficult to make decisions for you when you don't know what you need. I just need to really need to spend some time pondering on what I should do next and how I could make things better for myself. Wow, that stresses me out, but it needs to be done. 

Monday, August 11, 2008

My Father Lynn Moses and His Imprisonment

Hey everyone. Please read the articles below in order about the imprisonment of my father and forward it on to anyone you know. Also, if you want to email CNN, Fox News, Glenn Beck, etc. about it, we are trying to get some media coverage on this and by shear volume of emails sent to them hopefully we will be able to get them to pay attention to this. Thanks everyone, this is very very important to me and my family.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Life is predictable and unexpected at the same time

I am still here in the Burg working. I love my job, but sometimes my social life really suffers as I am probably the only person my age in this town that isn't married with children. Most of my long time friends have just graduated and moved to different places so I have developed a new group of a few friends that are typically a bit younger than I. I enjoy hanging out with many of them, but sometimes I don't think they relate because of the stuff I have experienced in the past couple of years. I think a lot about my mom and the struggle of losing her and the adjustment it has been for my whole family and they are thinking about how they have a hard test to take and how their roommate doesn't like them and how hard that is. I often get a selfish attitude and get mad that they could be so consumed by something so insignificant. I know and understand that in each of our own spheres we have problems that seem like a huge deal to us, but I just struggle to sympathize with some people because of my experiences lately. I need to learn to be more understanding as I probably had similar struggles and frustrations when I was younger. Well, that is all that I have for today, but stay tuned for an attempt at staying more up to date on here.

Friday, November 2, 2007

New Opportunities and Old Costumes

Well, I have been slacking a bit on this and need to get an update on here. I have started my new job and really enjoy it. The company is in its early stages so they haven't become an insensitive corporate entity. I like that. I like feeling like I am a part of something, not just the guy by the window who is disposable. I am really glad I got into this early in the game as it will likely provide some really good opportunities for me. I am currently doing some web development and customer support. We are still a bit disorganized because we are in the process of hiring new people and shifting people's roles around to compensate for that. Overall though, I really like it here. I think it is going to work out great. I also purchased a motorcycle and am waiting for it to get here from California. It is getting shipped to my sister's and I have to drive 3 1/2 hours to pick it up. I was really excited because it was contracted to arrive today and I was going to go get it and ride it back tomorrow morning, but the shipper now says it will be here Sunday or Monday. Grrrrr! Now I will likely have to wait another week to pick it up. If you haven't noticed it is November now and my riding days will soon be over for the season. Oh well, what can you do other than be miffed about it. Here is a pic of my new toy.

Ooooooh, this is the best part of the post. I am the activities co-chairman for my college ward and we had our Halloween Party the other night and my roommates and I went as an 80's rock band. Though my costume was new and comprised of modern clothing, it reflected a period of my life that was really fun. The 80's, though often very tacky and ridiculous, were some really good times. The music was amazing, life was less complicated, and overall it was just awesome. I decided to post some pics of the good times. so here you go.

Well, that is about it for today. I hope you all enjoy the pics.

Monday, October 8, 2007

Road Trips Can Bring Wisdom

So this weekend I travelled with some friends to General Conference in Salt Lake City. I felt it was about time I tried to go to the actual session considering the last time I went was when I was 4 years old. It proved to be a very good experience. There was something about being there that made the counsel that was given so much more real. There were so many talks given that were of great impact on me. It gave me a great deal to think about. One of the most vivid things I remember was the counsel to keep records of our lives and its events. It really struck me because I have felt an urgency to try and document my life better. I don't want my children to have no idea what experiences/trials/blessings made me who I am. I want them to see how life's mishaps and blessings can help you to become a better person. I want them to feel like Dad gets them. Like he understands where they are coming from because he has been through similar things. I think this blog and keeping a journal on my computer are going to make it easy for me to build something for them to enjoy later. I recently read some of the journal entries of my mother who passed away back in January of 2007 and it was a neat experience to read how she felt about her trials and her blessings. I understood her much more than I had before even though there weren't very many entries to read. I really came to understand how she felt about us children and my father and life in general. It was clear to me that our family was the most important thing to her and that is where most of her concern and worries were. She also had such a great concern for others and tried really hard to help others and set an example to me on how to care for others in a deeper way. I have a lot of work to do in that department. Well, that is pretty much it for now, but hopefully this paints a picture of some of the things I think about often. I find myself spending a lot of time in reflection on who I am right now and how it compares to the vision I have of myself in the future. It can be overwhelming to see the work that needs done to get me to where I want to be, but I know it is possible and the rewards will be amazing.

Friday, October 5, 2007

Doing New Things Should Make You Stronger Or Something, Right?

Well, I have decided to jump on the old blog bandwagon and start documenting my life to some extent. I often feel bad for not being better at journal writing and other such activities that will share who I am with future generations, but honestly I hate writing in a journal. The only success I have had is with digital journals. I get frustrated that I can't write as fast as I am thinking. When I type I can almost keep up with my thoughts. I am hoping that doing the blog thing will show people a little better what I am about and how I feel about stuff. I am hoping I learn that for myself as well. I am not sure I know what I am doing with my life. I have a job and friends and most of the things that people need, but often feel that something is missing, either I am in the wrong place or I am looking for the wrong things. I am not really sure. I just graduated from college and am still in the same town starting a new job and I am grateful to still be near family and old friends, but wonder sometimes if I should have taken a giant leap for me and gone somewhere else with no friends or anything for a fresh start. I hate change and I think it may have been a good time for me to force myself into it. I will have other chances soon enough. I will just try and enjoy the time I still have with friends and hopefully I will make some new ones along the way. Well, I am going to wrap this up for now, but I will be back with the random rantings of a man who is floating about with no clue what comes next.